Keep Your Head Up.

I love that I can be frank and sincere in my blog posts, so today when I am being extra-honest about my life, try not to judge me too harshly.

Let me admit that I am not perfect, just so we're clear (even though I know you already know that). But one thing that I do know (from personal experience, mostly) is that attitude matters.

I get so discouraged at the smallest things, and my negative attitude only pushes me further into anger and bitterness about my "failure". For example, BYU... I know I have said how much I love it and how great it is before, but don't confuse that with the level of difficulty. BYU is hard. Like sometimes, too hard. I have walked out of the testing center too many times wishing I had seen a better score on the screen. 

Yesterday was one of those days.

I went in to take my exam anticipating an easy A. I mean, last time I got a 97%, so this test should be no problem, right? Wrong. I walked out to go see my score and I see a 68% on the screen. 

Immediately my mind said, "Oh no. You just failed... Again. You are too dumb to be at BYU. You don't work hard enough. You don't understand the simplest things. What are you even doing here?"

And there goes that self-esteem that I've been building.

So I did the only thing that I knew would help me... I went to talk to my husband. Thank goodness for that man!! He encouraged me (like he always does) and calmed me down. He reassured me that I am doing a great job, and that next time will be better.

Okay, panic attack over.

Well, for now at least. My bad attitude came back when I couldn't understand my Statistics homework (it's getting rough in that class). And those bad feelings only kept progressing when I got home. I kept my mindset in a negative place and I just wanted a pity party. 

Another thing my husband is really good at is not letting me get my way when I refuse to think positively (again, thank goodness for that man).

So eventually, after a long evening of pouting, I realized that nothing would change unless I made the change. 

Don't let your little "failures" make you feel like you're worthless. You have the power to change the outcome of your circumstances.

Here's a little motivational song. Sorry for a tiny bit of the content, but the main theme of the song is what I'm getting at.

Happy Tuesday!